I THINK I am supposed to feel 'good' now,but I dont.
Once I read the email that another of my jobless fren got a job,I feel sick.
Not that I dun want her to get a job la,Geez!
I just feel Useless (with a capital *100 U)la.

Sigh~
Job..job...money..money...time..time...=(

Went out with Yng to shop shop today,after lunch.
We were both unused to the weekend crowds.
And almost the whole good day,we were cooped inside Far East Plaza.
Haw.

Sigh...Now my whole mind is all about me being the scalawag jobless Mich!
Damnit!
This is so freaking demoralizing.

Ok..*focus*

Actually..Yng is really upset about her dear Simon's attitude.
I am just not quite please with that guy's MCP and the way he treated her.Be it whatever reasons he has,how reasonable he can make himself to be!
If I put his life in hierarchy manner,it is definitely him on top,den his friends!

I mean..which guy would really put his friends on top of his own gf??

I am kinda mad at him that I can picture myself being the Phamton singing(or rather screaming) when Christine first took off his mask.

The one that goes.."Curse you...blah blah..something something...Lolita.."

Sigh~

It is hard to imagine we are just 21 this year.

I mean..21 SHOULD be the prime age,you should be confident,free,at the peak of everything..your studies,love,career etc.

How come nothing is quite right?

For me is definitely career!
With my savings depleting,I just feel ARGH!!!!

This week is VERY long...one week is really a full 7 days for me.
God..it is just 5 mins past 12(am) now..I thought it's like 1 plus 2 in the morning!

How freaking slow is time?

Sigh~~~*pulls hair*

I realised one thing...

The older you gets...the more UNinteresting things ard you become.

These days...
It is like....

When you shop,you dun really feel that kinda glee already.
Suddenly every shop seems to be displaying the same set of designs.

When you eat,you dun really feel the kinda yummy satisfaction.(unless it's ur comfort food or maybe you are starve)
But I mean the normal meals here.
It is like there is practically no difference in taste when you decided to buy the $4.50 chicken chop at the coffeeshop or spend $11++ on a cafe.
Maybe you only feel the pinch in ur wallet.

When it is festive seasons time,you just dun feel the festive in the air.
This is accounted from Christmas till NY till this coming lunar new year.
There is like nothing exciting about it.

I remembered last X'mas,I was in a very good shopping mood.
This year...well...not really.

New year..counting down to 2005 is plainly and painfully just another day marked down.
Maybe due to the Tsunami too.

CNY...sigh...forget abt CNY.
I dun even really feel like buying any new clothes(although I did,but I just dumped them in my closet without a second try at home)
Dun feel like wearing to impress any relatives.
Dun drool over those foods.(although I know I just cannot control my hands n mouth when it comes to pineapple tarts and bak kwa)
And not that the red packets managed to lure me.I doubt i would be receiving much also.
Sian..My main concern is me earning my own money...which is still an unknown date.(sigh)

So I am over the festives...

(and) Although cuties,hunks,handsomes,babes on the street still earned a second(or third or fourth) look from me,but it is getting so -_-~ as well.

It is just not the same when you see these group of pple when you were 16.

While pple think being the 20 something is the peak of ur life,the best part.
Well...I'd say,that is unless you have achieved it all or alot when you are 20 something.

If not..you are just like me,sailing thru the quater life crisis.
You feel neither young nor old.
You dun wanna be associated with the adults but you are no youth.
You dun wanna be a grown up,act or think like one...but you just cant stoop low to be those childish teens anymore.

What is the best you can do while you are in ur 20 something.

A good career.
A good,steady relationship.
A tough as rock and sweet as honey marraige.
A couple of offsprings.

See...that is THEN the prime of 20 something.

Sigh...

i hope tml is a better day for everyone....and me..and you..and you..and me..
-_-"